It's been so long since I cry over something, but tonight I just can't bear it. I'm literally crying when the first note of IHTBY playing on my player. Why Jongwoon, why can't we, your fans, make your dream come true. Why must you lose when you've given your best.
While listening to this song, I remember how fierce the voting competition was; how hard your Korean fans fought till the end to proudly placing your name on the 1st spot. How they lost during some final hours but apparently they made up for it. I have no idea how they could be that amazing; who knows how much they have sacrificed for our precious boy. There might be countless sleepless night, sweats and tears; nobody would ever know. All I can see is LaCrymaMosa, one of your very dedicated international fans who devotes her time and heart just for you. I think of her as the representation of your K-fans because I know they're not less amazing. Seeing how deep she loves you, she must be really hurt to see you went home w/ nothing; it makes me cry too.
Jongwoon, you're well loved and not because of your look or voice only. Your fans love you as a whole, as someone called Kim Jongwoon rather than Super Junior Yesung w/ his handsomeness and artistic voice. I never regret to choose you as my idol; I'm proud tbh. I'm proud to be your fan, to be one of few people who witness your long fight and journey to get into this peak point of your life. The point that you come into w/ sweats and tears while staying honest and caring to others, never give up till now, is my inspiration. Jongwoon, you've proven you carry the fame far more than because you're an idol. You teach me that nothing's impossible, family's most important and friendship is precious. There's so much more you've taught me. If I need to thank God, one of the things is for letting someone like you born and inspire many people like me.
Jongwoon, do you even know how deep your fans love you? Don't you ever feel unloved anymore, don't you ever cry because you feel you have no fans. When you cry, you look like a little fragile kid and it hurts. You might feel disappointed to not winning any awards on GDA but please don't be sad. It's our faults; you've given your best. We're gonna try better next year, so don't lose hope on us....
Oh sucks. Now my brother thinks that I get flu while actually my nose is watery because I'm crying...
It Has To Be Yesung......
